My relief......

I’ve already given up,

Already given in,

To love you like this,

I don’t think it’s a sin,

I revel in your warmth,

It’s hard to explain,

When you’re too close,

It’s almost pain.

Some times I wonder,

Why you mean this much to me,

Why I go into such trouble,

Just to get a glimpse of you, to see,

If you’ve changed,

overnight, Suddenly,

And started, for a change,

to notice me.

Then I realize

You’re just the same,

Indifferent to my feelings,

That I overcome with shame.

But you still are,

And forever be,

My sun shine,

My relief.

Missing you……

Cold are the walls that surround me,

Dark is this windowless room,

I lay in a huddle at the center,

Trying to train my eyes to the gloom,

The voices I hear are not friendly,

I don’t recognize who they’re from,

I open my eyes ever so gently,

Afraid of the dark shadows that roam,

I see you standing in front of me,

Surrounded by a glorious light,

When you smile I smile with you,

You seem to be shining bright,

The image of you is now blurring,

As with tears my eyes over flow,

I want to forget all the memories,

Of a world I’d rather not know.

I feel your love

I feel your love

Radiating from your eyes

I bloom like a flower

In the warmth of your light

Your voice, it sinks

Deep into my heart

At times it stings

When we are apart

This is our time

To fall in love and shine

I feel your love

Do you feel mine?

Missing the usual train

I watch you, your face blurred,

through the window pane

where drops of water still hangs on

from the previous day’s rain.

You stand there oblivious,

talking with your friends

while I’m sitting here wondering

and trying to make sense.

When we laughed together

I used to stare at your eyes.

The way you look at me

gives me butterflies

I like the way you bend closer

to hear what I say

and my hand raise

as if to caress your face.

Then I stop short

and point at something instead

reminding myself

that you belong to someone else.

At that thought a pain wells,

in my heart, deep inside,

it swells as I see you,

as I recall the warmth in your eyes.

It’s been days since I last saw you,

even more since we last talked.

I have to ignore you

it’s good for both of us, I know.

But watching you disappear

Through the throbbing crowd

brings back a forbidden tear

that I’ve tried hard to keep out.

The train moves away

on time to do its part,

adding more to the rhythm,

of the dull thumping of my heart.

Just this world and me...

I watch the sea,

Till I fall asleep,

Lulled by the sound of the waves

and drowsed by the salty breeze.

Sitting alone in the shade

of a coconut tree,

Looking at the far horizon,

At the enormity of the sea.

Its glistening surface

under the blazing sun’s heat,

Just the whole wide world,

And the grain of sand that’s me.